mindful mondays, three

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image by mary robinson.

10.13 am, I have just made myself a second cup of coffee. I used to dislike monday mornings. back then when I used to have real weekends, I would start dreading monday mornings on thursday the week before. monday mornings used to mean having to go back to school, having to wear the school uniform again. having to face all the people I never had much in common with. but things have changed a whole lot in the three years since graduation. I have created new routines in the meantime, abandoned them and then I tried to reestablish them again. I like the monday mornings now. they mean a fresh week, a new of week of to do lists and things to do. recently I’ve realized it’s easier living from monday to monday. with very short term goals and shorter lists of tasks.

but this week I would like to do more for myself –

+ reorganize my room; clean, declutter, sort. trash everything I don’t need or use or like anymore.

+ homemade hair and facial mask. I found a couple of good recipes. my eyes are puffy and with dark circles; my hair dry and sad. I constantly look tired and it shows. this needs to stop.

+ finish my 23 before 23 list.

+ complete photography portfolio and enable it online. it makes me so happy to be part of the cargo collective!

+ call grandparents, reply to emails from friends and family, mail the handwritten letter I have ready for almost a week now.

+ oh, and fibre de verre is a beautiful song to go with my morning coffee.

and so on. today is the warmest day of this year so far, with beautiful 27 degrees. it would be the perfect beach weather, if I didn’t have to be at work.

the recipe for this week

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ingredients:
3 tbs of seasoned doubts
1 l of profound love
a handful of fears
2 tbs of frustration
1 cup of anger
a string of misunderstandings
a pinch of intimacy

steps:
mix everything in a large, transparent and half broken bowl
stir constantly for 5 minutes over extreme heat
leave overnight so that heaviest ingredients settle at the bottom
add troubled butterflies for flavor

spend more time writing and reading, less time watching television, walk around, call grandparents, go the cinema, buy another set of notebooks to fill over the upcoming few months, break your favorite necklace, binge eat and gain unwanted weight, forget to check your schedule for the week.

cooking has never brought much happiness to me.

mindful mondays, two

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an old image. twenty-eleven.

already afternoon. monday morning simply sped past me. the past week has been rough. I spent most of the week at home; in clutches of a cold and cluster headaches. evil in its purest form. I had a lot of time for self-reflection and lots of time to sleep; perhaps more than I did in the last few months altogether. I’ve managed to overcome my constant sleep deficit, which is good. I feel better now. it’s done wonders for my attention span. hopefully it will last. it’s been a long time since I’ve spent so much time at home. I liked it.

+ I started reading things fall apart by chinua achebe yesterday afternoon. I am not sure how many times I’ve read that book. I’m almost at the end of the novel now. each time I seem to have more respect and understanding for it. I am able to appreciate it in different ways, now.

+ I have been making and drinking smoothies in the mornings. they’re good, tasty and healthy. they also make for perfect breakfast and I want to continue with them. the best part? the possibilities and combinations are infinite.

+ I am completely in love with this dining room and floor-to-ceiling world map.

+ this giraffe made laugh out loud. this almost made me cry.

(as an artist, marina abramovic scares the shit out of me. I am not sure what I would do if I met her in person. even though I am sure she’s a lovely individual. but she is dark. dark! but I do admit that I would have loved to have taken part during this performance. I wonder what my reaction would have been.)

+ twenty untranslatable words. I have been working on a list of my favorite words and I stumbled upon this during my research. pretty interesting, don’t you think? it also made milan kundera’s books next on my re-reading list.

+ photoshop etiquette. this is saving my life right now. and probably some other people’s as well.

I am going to make this week a good one.