life, lately

20140331 - life lately

lots of yellow (it happened last year, too)
tiu keng leng / at a crossing / rainy morning / waiting for my lift

march in a list

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I feel as thought as weight has been lifted off me, ever since I finished mindful mondays. curated, weekly posts are not for me. 52 weeks failed after six, but I am keeping the images in a folder and they will come alive at some point. just not yet. I am returning to my simplicity, to spontaneous words and quiet contemplations. writing a series of weekly posts makes me uncomfortable. I thought of another three or four themes, but I rejected all the ideas already. balance is something else. balance is this:

things I enjoyed this month

+ the feeling of paying my first rent. on time, and with great satisfaction. 37 days in a new home and counting.
+ coffees with the boy. sometimes in the morning, sometimes he walks with me to work and we drink our cups on the roof of ifc before my shift. sometimes he comes unannounced in the middle of the afternoon with a coffee in hand for me. early morning, late afternoon, any time of the day. cappuccino, hot chocolate. mine and his, always.
+ quiet movie nights at home. we’d watched too many films to count lately. oh and the godfather last night again.
+ a new ritual of daily fresh squeezed grapefruit juice on the way to work. I found a cheaper version of the same quality and I am keeping it without skipping a day. sometimes, I crave a second bottle in the afternoon. it really gives me an energy boost like nothing else.
+ Her; beautiful film, cinematography, soundtrack. in a way, it reminded me of A Single Man. hilarious, thought-provoking, astonishing. a definite recommendation.
+ the slow transition between winter and spring. hong kong is well on the way to experience its first heat waves, which I am not looking forward to. but currently, the blue skies, temperature in the low twenties (*Celsius),  morning breeze and freshness in the air. loving it.

things I did not enjoy this month

+ another outbreak of my atopic dermatitis. I am thinking of writing a post about this problem of mine, inspired by Boo. [czech only] mine is not as extreme as hers, but we are using all the same products.
+ unnecessary spending and wasting of money. I have become such a conscious spender; it is ridiculous. almost like a change in personality. I kind of appreciate it, but at the same time, it doesn’t exactly allow me to enjoy myself.
+ daily routine. it is becoming a little bit too much and I am looking for a change.

mindful mondays, fifty-two

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I had never expected or thought that I would actually finish all fifty-two weeks of this so-called project. I have no idea what this is. a series of timed posts in hopes of establishing a writing routine, discipline, something. in terms of that goal, mindful mondays have shamelessly failed. I rarely wrote the posts on monday and there was no continuity between them. I don’t know. but I am here. at week fifty-two. writing the final post, because I don’t intend to continue into a second year. there is no reason for me to, really. I have other projects on my mind and a rather extensive list of deadlines, which need to be completed. I am trying to develop or figure out a daily schedule, in which I would have enough time for my full-time job, freelance projects, possibly another website, a hong kong guidebook, which I am working on, photography sessions and the occasional physical activities (yoga! tennis! you naughty mind.) it’s proving to be almost impossible.

but I am trying. I am making the ends meet and not only that, but they are also beginning to make sense. we celebrated the first month in our new apartment quietly. it is surprisingly easier than I thought it would be. there is a healthy balance between time together, time alone and things that need to be done and things that can wait. there is no pressure anywhere and all is going with the flow. I am grateful for this. the past month has brought changes, definitely. a new home neighborhood, a new work neighborhood. new friends and colleagues; new acquaintances. new films and new music. everything that I have been wanting and needing. as much as my routine is monotone and identical from day-to-day, there are handful of things that make me happy, that keep me afloat and inspired.

so much for mindfulness.