hong kong has become unbearable. endless greyness drowning the minds of the population into an oblivion. sometimes it is just easier to stay intoxicated and it doesn’t have to mean substance abuse. simple numbness. I haven’t left the house for four days. because, why should I? there is nothing happening out there that could somehow help me understand anything. every time I just see things in a different light, which reminds me of how little I have in common with people in around me. especially those who pretend to care.
reading through the american history, connecting the dots. it is easy to study history because nothing can surprise you anymore. it is only the future that holds all the unanswered questions, waiting quietly to throw them into your face. I need a little bit of sunshine. I feel completely dead inside.