completely under pressure. lacking sleep. playing the same songs over and over on repeat, not being able to move on. deciding on things I want to do. loving french lessons, chinese all the more. I’ve missed some of the people, really. I am more than glad to find that some things haven’t changed. our relationships haven’t really changed. I have a lot to consider, figure out. decide. all these words are hanging above my head like a big black cloud. but it’s expected. when I said I will find another you, I had no idea it would be so hard. I am not ready to give up yet.

bear with me.