Eventually, the sun came out again. At least for a while.
I slipped away into summer for four days at the end of November. Tel Aviv was everything I needed.
Warm air, streets full of bougainvillea trees, oranges, lemons, oleanders, and olive trees. Everything that is Mediterranean engulfed me and I felt right at home. I walked to Carmel Market one afternoon and purchased bags of chili, curcuma, and the Dead Sea mud.
I bought a box of sweet baklava and ate it on a beach with my pants rolled up, barefoot, and with the sun in my back.
Stumbled into a second-hand bookshop and walked away with Aesop’s Fables. Favorite childhood stories rediscovered twenty years later. The one about The Ant and the Grasshopper. My maternal grandmother would tell me this story over and over.
As I write this, a cup of nana tea steams on the table and Idan Raichel keeps me company. It is enough to take me back in time and across the sea, across continents. But I am restless for another set of flight tickets.
In those days, I survived less and lived more. Most of the time, I ride the waves with ease. Sometimes, the tide is too high and yet there’s nothing else to do but push through it.
The trick is to read between the lines and listen to the wind. It whispers quietly if you know how to listen. I’ve learned that the universe has my back.
Tel Aviv. Far away from everything and yet I was close to feeling like myself than I have all year.
The sea waves melted away my anxiety. I’ll be back. I’ll come home to myself again.