volume four: crazy heart


a relaxing day. I spent the afternoon in a bookstore, browsing through lonely planets. and after many months, mother and I we went for a coffee. my legs feel tired from all the walking, my mind too clouded to read. I cannot concentrate on the words before me, their meaning escapes me. I have only thought of one thing the entire day: it has been a year since we met. and today was painfully similar to that day. the weather, the wind, the atmosphere on the island. everything reminded me. I skipped dinner; had just a snack. and instead of going out, I went home, wrote a few letters and watched hours of mindless television shows. sometimes I wish I couldn’t remember everything so well. crazy heart.

I will forget you by tomorrow but right now, oh man.

March 31, 2011