not the figure of speech I wanted

it’s been a pleasant day. I spent the majority of it in solitude, studying, writing and eating. I have been eating a lot lately. I cleaned and tidied my room as if to clear out my mind. I’m distracted, counting days and trying to figure out what next. I wrote a lot in chinese, practicing and learning the characters. again, it made me realize how much I love chinese language. I spent the afternoon grocery shopping, carefully picking the groceries; I felt inspired by the expensive and delicious food. but right now I’m silently looking at the ocean, drinking a cup of warm chai tea and listening to unplugged in new york. I’m convinced it would be impossible for me to get tired or bored of this album. I’m struggling with the writing tonight. my mind is restless, my fingers tired. perhaps some other time.

October 24, 2010